A Rush of warmth to the Class

Hmm.

I was absent on Tuesday, and I had received one phone call from Grace, who inquired about my absence, before inquiring about my health. Valerie also smsed me, before I phoned her up to speak on lighter matters.

However, the wierd thing remained was that when I came into class yesterday, almost all of my classmates asked me why I was absent yesterday.... and some also seemed concerned. No feeling of disdain whatsoever, I was just so surprised that all of the sudden my classmates cared for me... even Keri asked me. Of course I wouldn't have expected it, much less her even noticing it.

Then came when i needed to get some hot-glue sticks, and Hee Kiah managed to procure some for me from the store, but as I followed him into the store to get it, instead of just waitign outside, he started to give me those man-to-man talks.

HK: 'You were absent yesterday is it?'

C: 'Yeah'

HK: 'How come your classmates didn't know where you were?'

C: 'Umm... I dunno, I suppose I was too sick to tell them'

HK: 'Oh.. See, when i asked them where you were, I was kind of mad that they didn't even know where you were! That's when I asked them further about you... and then one of your classmates said that they didn't even know you that well'

C: 'MmmHmm...'

HK: 'Yeah... What's more you're the class rep, you have to work harder to socialise with you classmates, especially when they keep telling me you talk to Alvin more than your own classmates..'

C: 'Ok'



Here's the deal: the reason why I talk to Alvin more is because both of us have the same brainwave patterns, and at least I can joke more easily with Alvin, we play songs together, and we help each other out, watching out for each other. Also, it isn't a part of me to not speak to anybody... in fatc i like to socialise, but it's also a partial language barrier when I speak English (non-too unprofoundly) like five hundred times more fluently than mandarin.

I like my classmates, i also like my privacy. It's just an inherent quality of myself to stay quiet when I am working, just as much as I just can't help banging my head, pumping my fist (when I am really spiked) listening to AC/DC.

Just realise, my dear classmates, you guys love it on your own, I'm kinda like a loner. i don't wish to become a sore thumb, and ruin your conversations by speaking out of point etc. I just feel out of place in your company, no fault on your part.

And I want to thank those who cared about my health... thank you. Let's get over it soon enough.


Cheers,

Crawldaddy